Change happens fast

This year I went through a great change. My whole life was flipped upside down. The change started in April when I met Abby Skidmore. We both worked at The Oakdale Diner. It was the first day the diner was open and we began to talk. She was 17 just like me and she went to South Fayette. We started to talk about prom and she told me her prom was on May 27^th. I replied by saying wow that’s my birthday, and she screamed out me too. Right then and there I knew we were going to be really good friends. By the beginning of my senior year Abby and I were best friends. But I still had “best friends” that went to school with me. I began to grow apart from them as the year progressed and by October I had all together detached myself from them. Abby was just so different and free and I had so much fun with her. My friends hated her though because she was stealing me away from them. They practically told me to choose between them and Abby. I was furious and I chose Abby because I couldn’t believe that they would do this to me.

Now sitting here today I haven’t talked to my old friends in a while and Abby and I are till best friends. I spend almost every day with her, and I love very moment of it. I learned who my real friends were. I also learned that I can get through anything. I had a huge decision to make about my life and I feel like a made the right decision. I changed so much in such a little amount of time. I’ve met so many new people and done so many new and exciting things. If it wasn’t for Abby I’d still be living my old boring life

Just stuck with my thoughts int he library...

Lately I’ve been thinking a whole lot about the possibility of earth not being the only planet with life on it. I recently heard about scientists finding a 10^th planet that had water on it. That means that maybe just maybe it could hold organisms. If you think about it we are getting closer and closer to finding a planet that is just like ours. If this tenth planet has water on it, then the 20^th planet might be just like earth. There could quite possibly be other things in the universe just like us. I imagine that they would look like crazy aliens or weird humans. I spend all day thinking about this theory. It’s such a complex concept.

Another concept that I think a lot about is where are we from? What is a human and how was it first created. This whole earth is so complex. Each and every living thing on this earth has its own structure and make up. It’s crazy to think that just one “man” created it all. How could just one person created billions of different things in just a few days. The idea of God is a little far fetched for me to handle. I know that its “bad” not to believe in God, but I just see things a different way and it’s too hard for me to just believe. At least I’m thinking about this and not just believing in God so I don’t go to hell. I feel like that the biggest cop out. Just believing in God because someone told you he is real is like a fairy tale. Your parents told you the tooth fairy is real too. Scientists have the perfect theory of evolution. It make perfectly good sense, but a lot of people are too proud to believe it. I feel like God is just like Santa. Practically every culture has their own “god” and their own Santa. How come Santa is so unbelievable when really it’s a lot more believable than god. Santa flies around in a sleigh and delivers presents to all the boys and girls, but God created everything. Light and dark, the fish in the sea, the trees and flowers, and us. I feel like God is used like a security blanket for people who can’t handle thinking about humans evolving and being created in the circle of life. I’m sorry if I have offended anyone, but I just want you to take a chance and think about it.

The Begining

My best friend Abby Skidmore and I were driving along a secluded road somewhere in McDonald with all the windows down and the sun roof was open. The music was playing just loud enough to hear Nate Paulson rapping our favorite song. It was about 2 am and it was the first time I had ever snuck out. The sky was full of silver beaming stars and there was a nice breeze. We were looking for a good road to drive on. Finally we found an unpaved road and we took it. We were being tossed around in our seats from the pumps and holes in the road. We could tell that we were getting closer to a farm because of the smell. I can remember how we were laughing so hard because the smell was horrible. It smelt like straight up dirty cow and old hay. Finally we parked, turned the music up and looked out the sun roof. As wiz rapped about hoes and weed we stared out at God’s gift. We began to talk about how somewhere in the universe there is another planet just like ours. It was the deepest conversation I had ever had with someone. Now looking back I didn’t even appreciate that conversation that much, but now after much “practice” I see the world just as she does. Little did I know that, late night drive would change me forever. The breeze in fact would be what changed me for the better.

Mitzy

When I was about 6 my family bought a dog. We drove out to a farm in our maroon station wagon and picked her up. She was just a mut but she was pretty. I remember being in the car thinking of names for our new dog, but of course I couldn’t think of anything that was great for her. Finally my mom came up with Mitzy. She was such a mitzy. She was just happy and nice, but unfortunately I was 6 and I was always bothering her so we didn’t have the best relationship. But she still loved me and I loved her. I grew up with her and two years ago our time together was cut short. Mitzy began to change. She was having problems. She could hardly hold her bladder, and she was drinking a ton of water. We were worried so we took her to the vet. We went into the room and told the vet about our problems. She gave us a few possibilities of her sickness. One thing she said was diabetes. When she said that my mom started crying. I wasn’t exactly sure what that entailed so I wasn’t very upset yet. She was correct. Mitzy had diabetes and we had to make a hard decision. If we were to treat her diabetes we would have to test her blood and give her shots every day. I couldn’t imagine hurting her like that on a daily basis. Pricking her with needles and seeing her sick was something I couldn’t handle. So we took her home and made the decision to put her down. It was devastating. She was our first family dog and we loved her so much. That day I sat at home with her and cried all day. It was so sad. Today thinking about it I’m pretty upset, but now I have a new dog and I love her so much. Her name is Beatrice or Bea for short and she is literally the love of my life. She is a beautiful English springer spaniel that is full of energy and just loves to be loved. I know everyone thinks their dog is the prettiest, but seriously she is the prettiest dog I’ve ever seen. She jumps into my bed every morning to wake me up then we cuddle. It was sad to see Mitzy go, but we we’re blessed with a new dog that my family loves.

Life is so good right now

Life is good for me right now, but there’s too many people wasting their lives. Everybody dies but not everybody lives. There are too many people just sitting at home watching TV. That doesn’t even sound fun at all. I’d rather be doing new things and going to new places. There’s so much more in the world than a lot of people know. Not even the world though; there’s more in a lot of people’s towns than they even know.

There are a lot of people who do “fun” things, but they don’t even know what fun is. Going to the mall and walking around every Friday night is not fun. People should be more spontaneous and do crazy fun things. Instead of going to the mall go downtown and just look at stuff. Just drive around and look at stuff and I guarantee you’ll have fun. Don’t have any regrets just go crazy and have fun cause it’s harder to have fun when you’re grown up. Don’t let life pass you by.  

How does life "stack up"

The cup stacking activity that we did symbolizes the ups and downs of life. You stack your life up and it may get torn down just like the cups. The ups and downs of your life define who you are. The decsions you make within events of your life can either make or break you like a cup stackers speed and agility can make them a star. You just have to roll with the punches. Things are going to get in your way and set you back, but you can't let it go to your head. Even though the groups were set back by the styrofoam cups we worked it out and did the best we could. Don't let the "styrofoam cups" of life bring you down just do your best and go with the flow.

I'm so scared...about everything

I am so scared about so many things right now. First of all in a couple months i'm going to be out of highschool. That scares me the most just because i still haven't gotten accepted to college yet :( I finally scheduled my visit to RMU for the 29th of November. I was going to just apply and not even visit, but there’s a possibility that I could totally hate RMU, but I think I’m going to like it. As long as everything’s really new, pretty, and clean. I am just so worried that I wont get accepted. Everyone always says that it’s like super easy to get in, but still I’m worried as a mofo! I don’t have the best grades at all and I just took the SATs for the first time so my scores are to probably absoulute POOP, so I’m going to take them again just to make my chance greater to get into RMU. Even though everyone keeps telling me I’m going to get accepted but I’m still shaking in my tan cute boots that I’m wearing today. ALSOOOOO I scheduled my drivers test for December 17^th. That is so scarrryyy. I just need to learn how to parallel park. I’m not very good at parking at all let alone parallel parking. BUT don’t worry because I have a subaru on my side. The truning radious is really tight so it’s an easy car to park in. But I’m just worried because my dad has to teach me how to park because my mom can’t park at all. She probably couldn’t park a bike if she tried. My dad is always busy and really tired when he comes home from work so he never wants to take me driving, and for some reason I make him really nervous….i have no idea why. Haha. Serioulsy though I’m not a horrible driver. Everyone says I do a good job. So he needs to quit being a baby. He is a grown man. Alllssoo I’m scared because I really really really really like this guy but I have no idea if he likes me. He obviously thinks I;m pretty but ya know you just don’t know. He’s in college too so I have to compete against college hoes. SCARY! He actually goes to RMU! So hopefully I get in so I can see him all the time. I’m just a scared human being L

Married to the money a true love story

Money has really been bothering me lately. It seems like the whole entire world revolves around money which is like really sad. I also have been thinking about how money is the root of all evil. Money is sucha dangerous thing

Money is such a big part of my life right now. I hate it so much. I actually started working three days a week just to habe more money. I have so much stuff to save up for. I have to save up for college, senior trip, and i have to have 400 dolars in my band acount by the time i trun 18. I literally have no idea what im doing with my future. I know i want to go to college but i just dont know where. I was thinking about going to CCAC for two years and then moving to Georgia and going to college there...Miami would be cool too. I just dont know. Im raking the SAT's this Saturday so depending on my scores i might go to RMU right away after highschool. But RMU isnt exactly the cheapest college. But ive had people tell me that is you go to CCAC for two years it could even cost more money to go to certain colleges because some of the classes dont transfer. I just dont kinow what to do. i wish I had someone to figure out all of this stuff, but soon im going to be my own so I have to learn how to make decsions on my own. On top of the whole college situation im going to ocean city for senior trip. I AM SO EXCITED! Its going to be absoulutly crazy. I just want to have enough money to have a good time. I dont want to worry about running out of money while im there. But I also have to consider the money i need to save up for college. But i just want to have a good time in ocean city. I thought that if i saved atleast 40 dollars a week from work id have a good amount to go, but we havent even looked where we are staying yet so it all depends on how much the house is going to cost. I really just cant wait its goin to be so much fun. But Even if i save up 1400 dollars for ocean city i still have to put 400 dollars in my bank account by the time i turn 18 because you have to have atleast 400 dollars in your bank account when your 18 or you have to pay 4 dollars a month. Theres just so much money i need. I should be saving all of my money, but i like to go places and have a good time and that costs a lot of money. Im just worried about when im an adult too because im sure we have seen the worst yet. By the time we all grow up im sure everything will cost 10 times more than it does. Im actually scared. Im not very good at saving my money. Im really a frivilous spender. I just wish money wasnt such an issue with my life

Ive heard so many stories where money has totally torn apart families or friends. Brothers and sisters are fighting over their parents money after they die. People do absoulutly evil things just to get some money. My mom tells me stories about family friends who have actually done things behind their own parents back to get their money when they die, but it should be eqaully distributed between the family memebers. I could see maybe if there was a child that did absoulutly nothing for their parents in their old age getting cut out of the money, but ive heard of the main care giver child getting nothing just because the other child is so selfish. Right now my mom is actually seeing a family fall apart because of greed. She is a companion for an older woman who is very wealthy because of her husbands bussiness, but her husband died, so her son runs the company. This older woman has althiemers,  dementia, and parkinsons disease so her mind is not sound to be making decsions about the money, so her son takes care of the money. She has told me about times where the son wouldnt even get something fixed for his mother because he is being greedy with the money even though all of this money goes to her. Its just so sad to hear of all of these stories ruining peoples families because of money. A lifeless peace of paper.....

Garrett: All about the Money

Garrett: All about the Money: Money, Money, Money. Everyone thinks about it. People who say they dont, either have more than they know what to do with, or theyre lying. ...

I work at a diner and I'm a waitress, and all of the other workers complain to all of the waitresses saying we make so much more than them. It really annoys me because like you said they could get a different job. They could even be a waiter or waitress there. Also some of the waitresses complain that we only make 2.38 an hour but usually in tips i make about 18 an hour, so there's no reason to complain...seriously. Or waitresses complain about not getting enough tips, well thats there fault cause they are horrible waitresses. So I really do agree with you 100%

WOOF WOOF

 This morning once we had already got the class started we were stopped by a surprising announcment. One of the large men that walk around the hallways said that dogs were going to search the school. In the beggining of the year we were made aware that the dogs would be searching eventually, but we just didn't know when. So when the aanouncment was made the whole class began to chatter. No one was freaking out for real, but if you think about it anyone who actually did have drugs probably wouldn't say anything. I'm sure they are sweating right now haha.
  Personally I don't think it's a bad idea to have dogs search the school because anyone who is dumb enough to bring their drugs to school should get caught. Just leave your drugs at home. I hope you did leave them at home cause it's a little late at this point if you didn't. A lot of people do drugs; probably like more than 50% of he students at West A do drugs. But if they arn't smart enough to keep it private then they shouldn't be allowed. If you're smart about the way you handle your drugs do them all day just don't get caught.
  Good luck everyone haha

MUNY

 Money makes the world go round.

Take a second to think about all the times in your life so far that you've used money. Now take a second and think about how much you will use money when you live on your own and have a family. Without money what can you even do in life. It's a very sad fact that money controls our lives, but it's the complete truth.

Does money bring happiness?

Money can make you or break you. If you use your money right it can make you the jolliest person alive, but if you use it wrong you can become greedy and angry.

My family is middle class so we arn't making it rain, but we really don't have money problems. There has been times though where my parents have said how are we going to pay for all of this. Sometimes things happen where you need extra money that just isn't there, and if you had that money the situation would be much better. For example in 2005 my family's house was hit by huricane Ivan. That meant that we had to pretty much start from scartch and re-build our house. Thankfully we had insurance and were able to get loans to buy materials. Many people also doanted various things to us. We got through the flood, but money was tight during that time. I still think to this day what if we had all of that money and didn't have to worry about paying loans back or struggling to get by, life would've deffiently been easier for us, and a lot of stress and anguish would have been resolved. So yes for me I know money would bring happiness, maybe not so much happiness but stability.

This summer i stayed at my uncle Kevin and aunt Laura's house for two weeks. I got to travel by myself for the first time. It was really great to get away from my parents for so long. Anyways my aunt and uncle have made a great life for themsleves and their two kids. They have an amazing house on lake lenior, four beautiful cars, a boat, and more money than they know what to do with. While I stayd with them i had the best time, and i believe it was because of their money and all of the material things that they posses. My aunt Laura (who retired at 35) and I would go shopping everyday and go to really nice restraunts for lunch. Then when we got home the whole family would go out in the boat and then go out to dinner. It was seriously the life. Even though my uncle and his two sons Dennis and Aaron worked during the day; they had a beautiful house to come home to. Of course as you can imagine their has was the place whre everyone wanted to hangout at. So every night after dinner My cousin's friends came over and partied all night. Without their money none of this would be possible, and i would not have had the best vacation of my life. SO once again money can bring happiness if you use it right. 

Life at “The Jersey Shore” - Busted Halo

Life at “The Jersey Shore” - Busted Halo

Answers, Answers, Who's got the Answers?

What the heck happened?
  How did this happen so fast?
  Who is responsible?
  Do they know what they did?
  Am I to blame?
   Partly, but is it their concern?
Will it ever be the same?
  Can I redeem myself?
  Do I want to change?
I know the answers I'm just not ready to admit

Bitter Sweet Reality

"why are you ignoring me!' yelled
  desire. You could see the fury
  in her eyes.
"I'm not" claimed guilt "I'm so
  sorry hun" he apologetically stated.
  "I miss you...I really do"
  added guilt.
"Then why don't you answer me!"
  shouted desire; her eyes were
  tearing up.
Guilt embraced desire and kissed
  her head.
"Hun i never meant to hurt you"
  declared guilt; looking into her
  eyes she caved. His look was
  like a hand loosening a vice.
"I'm sorry guilt, I just miss you.
  I know you didn't mean to hurt
  me." apologized desire
In his head guilt sneered "I knew
 she'd forgive me."


Just like that, guilt is forgiven.
  how could you not? just look
  at him. He gets away scott
  free, but what about desire's
  heart, what about her feelings?
She needs to be stronger, but
  she is not ready to loose
  him.

This is an escape

I feel like this whole blog is an escape for me. It's kind of like a psychiatrist for me. I get to use my writing to let out my feelings. I know this probably sounds like really cliche and weird right now but this is exactly how I feel. Some of  my blogs might seem a little mean or like crazy but that's just what I'm thinking about. No one can say that they don't think about freaking out on someone or just totally slapping someone across the face. I just get these feelings out by writing them down instead of actually hurting someone.  

?Amiga?...Nunca

Like a boulder in a sea of pebbles
  she makes her presence known,
her voice is piercing,
  she stands alone...
the elephant in the room


Her being irks all that surround,
  pushing us away with the
  dictum and judgment,
  until her voice is only a
  minute undertone,
unfortunately we will never drowned her out

HATERS GON HATE

  Seriously I don't understand why everyone is so concerened about what other people are doing with their lives! I'm sick and tired of people caring about what I do in mt life. BE MORE CONCERNED ABOUT YOURSELF. TRUST ME YOU ARN'T PERFECT!  Neither am I so why don't we all just worry about yourself. In the words of miley cyrus nobody's perfect! I'm 17 i think I can make my own decisions. I don't care what you think about me because I know exactly who I am and YA'LL don't need to be judging me. Everyone is flipping out about the choices I'm recently making in my life, well guess what!!?? I love my life right about now. This is the best it's ever been. So I'm going to do me and you do you. Don't worry about me because I can handle making simple life  decisions.
   Yesterday I was so worked up because of all of this crap. Well today I've decided if you have a problem with me then why don't you just shove it! SERIOUSLY GUYS COME ON! You don't even know anything about this crap. CHECK YOUR FACTS BEFORE YOU GO SAYING ALL OF THIS STUFF! and don't you dare think that you'll be telling me what to do either. And half of you seriously have no place to even care about my life. You are just a bunch of gossiping fools. There are only 3 people who have any place in this matter. ME MYSELF AND I! (and my 2 bestfriends), but you get the point.....okay I'm done


    P.S. obviously this isn't about everyone, but you know who you are >:(

Yeah the suns shinnin and Im feelin right

Look outside to see the emerald kingdom
 fresh and budding; feeling alive. 
 can almost smell the mossy dew 
 the landscape grows an image sweet mint inside your mind
 allow the lush vegitation spread across your thoughts, and filter the glare of the world
 for just a second let the jade oasis take you away